Took the anak itik to the kolam again today. Bibik made friends with another Indonesian maid who was taking care of an eleven-month old boy. He’s the third of soon-to-be four. Local. The Sir & Madam are in Thailand right now, cuti-cuti. And she is seven-months prego. The Madam that is. Left all three children with all the three maids. Ouieee! Howzit? The Sir & Madam are in their mid twenties, irrelevantly speaking. Go figure loh hor?
That made me ask myself why I wanted Kitreena so badly, and then stopped wanting – for Klarissa or Edrick. For now, at least. Guilt is often playing tricks on me tumbled soul even when I let Kitreena watch Lilo & Stitch with no supervision. Do I dare cuti-cuti to Thailand leaving her with Bibik alone?
If I don’t want what I have, then I should not have wanted.
I’m gone mothering.
Questa è Enida 
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