Questa è Enida

I remember being asked by Kitreena the other day as to why I liked blue – the color. And I remember telling her that when you like something you don’t need a reason. That’s the principle I have held on to for as long as I can remember. But today, at Cafe Kazema HUKM – which to us has been Cafe Aczema – Ka Cher and I unintentionally dived into the subject. We never intend to dive into any subject any day anyway. We just dive. And we always have a good swim.

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After reading As Zewt As It Gets some time ago, Ka Cher got the impression that Zewt believes at some point, one should have the need to reason why one loves the way one does. One needs to be able to fill in the blank to complete this statement:

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“I love you because __________.”

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I suppose, logically speaking…when you have your reason why you do, it makes it easier to reason why you don’t when you don’t. Then, your logic can tell your heart to finish this statement:

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“I don’t love you (anymore) because __________.”

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As soon as we made that plunge, I sank myself for a little while longer than usual. Just enough to come back to the surface and not drown. While I was in there, I hit my rock bottom. I realized, for reasons known only to him, Be never loved me. He just let himself drift away along those ten years with me. And when he drifted apart from me, he just let it be. And I…I was just too busy hanging on to love. I thought it was love that was keeping us alive. Together.

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I surfaced.

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And beyond any logic or needs to reason, I left both statements with each blank unfilled. For reasons known only to me, I love(d) him unreasonably.

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