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Anger Movement

Posted in Bibik, Mesra, Sense, tagged , , , on February 4, 2021| Leave a Comment »

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The Masak Lemak Tauge Soya for my vegan daughter was already boiling on the stove when I realized I was out of daun kunyit. Too late, although I stormed outside frantically hoping there was a pot of turmeric plant left by Bibik Cas in her garden. Teda bah. And serai didn’t quite do it as a substitute. This was last week.
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So I looked high and low for turmeric leaves when Kitreena and I were at Mercato yesterday. And what I had to pay for it angered me in more ways than not. At my Dad’s place, there are pots upon pots of turmeric bushes it’s not even funny! Makan tak habis, they fill almost every corner of his backyard.
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I was angry and kinda kicked myself for not being bothered to ever even THINK of taking a pot of those ‘gold leaves’ home. So now padan muka I had to spend RM0.95 for one #$&@*?! single piece of turmeric leaf in the city.
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That anger was so intense, it moved me!
It moved me back to the fresh produce section to get these…
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Nampaknya esok ada yang kena tanam hidup-hidup.
Siap kau, kunyit!

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Access Denied

Posted in Sense, Write On on May 8, 2020| Leave a Comment »

ACCESS DENIED

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安静

Posted in Inside Enida, Sense on February 16, 2018| 1 Comment »

March 25, 2017:
One thing I noticed about strong-minded people is that… even in times when they feel the most helpless, they often end up helping others instead. And that even in times when they desperately need someone to talk to, they usually end up being the one listening.

Silence

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February 16, 2018:
Almost a year later, I noticed that there is a big bottle in each of these strong-minded people, filled with their own words. The bottle stuffed. Capped. The words left unsaid.

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Tag, You’re It!

Posted in Inside Enida, Sense on May 21, 2017| Leave a Comment »

Friday, the nineteenth day of May, 0800H.
I was at Shell Hartamas. Isi minyak and had no other intentions, supposedly. But then, ternampak pulak this new-looking cafe at Shell. I thought, okaylah. Singgahlah sekejap breakfast. (Alasan biasa to have my morning ‘Enida Time’.).

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It was indeed a new, and nice-looking cafe. Well lit. Macam IKEA. I took my food, got to the cashier, said my bubbly ‘good morning’…

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Hi, Ms Enida.

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Hah?
I touched my chest for a reality-check. I haven’t worn my name-tag since my last training session at Markas Udara, TLDM. Bagus betul cashier ni, I thought. Siap sebut nama. But I didn’t have my silver-shining EC name-tag on.

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Saya Siti, last time dekat McDonald’s Pandan Mewah. Saya pernah ikut training Puan.

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Oh!
I was all smiles dan hati berbunga-bunga ungu macam bunga ‘Thankful’ on Facebook. And as I was sitting having breakfast this morning, there was a song playing on repeat in my head.

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Sometimes you wanna go
where everybody knows your name.
And they’re always glad you came.
You wanna be where you can see
the troubles are all the same.
You wanna be where everybody knows your name.

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Some Times

Posted in Hurt, Nostalgia, Sense, Write On on May 8, 2017| Leave a Comment »

When I heard the story about a tardy ruler from someone who had to wait for him, I was skeptical. But when thirty minutes dragged on to three hours, and the same tardiness seemed to be fashionable as it happened in three occasions within just two to three days… my heart bled blue. Oh how I wish the stories were not true.

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For days on end the stories disappointed me. Hearing more stories about the same ruler who is actually well known to have made people wait, somehow hurt the very core of my soul. I don’t understand why, and for some reason I was in denial. So much so that I went looking for the hukum of tardiness. Oh how I wish the rules were above the ruler.

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And then I remember Ustazah Khadijah who used to wait for my whole class to come back from the science lab to attend her Agama period at the end of the afternoon session. I, for one, used to drag my feet to her class until one gloomy late afternoon when she had enough of our tardiness and told us that God would be fair to those who make others wait.

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No matter how well we have served God and how kind we have been to people in this life, there is something about time that many will be denied heaven for, she reminded us. And that is if we are tardy. For punctuality is a promise. A trust. And one who breaks his or her promises of time purposely will be denied the best of the hereafter.

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“Tuhan dah janji dah. Tak tepati masa kat dunia ni, kat akhirat satni hangpa tunggu lah pulak sampai Dia redha kat hangpa baghu buleh masuk syurga. Tak keigha lah hang sapa kat dunia ni, hatta seorang raja.”

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This Far

Posted in Hope, Sense on April 16, 2017| Leave a Comment »

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I wasn’t overly sure what exactly the highlight of the wedding I attended today was. The food at the reception at Sahara Tent, Shah Alam, was one of the most delicious of Arabic meals I have had ever since the feast in the tent at Al Bustan Palace, Muscat in 2005, maybe? I ate. Oi! For eating’s sake, I ate! It is my third week of no-carb diet. But today was the big cheat day, I’d say.

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When Delynne said it was going to be a small wedding, I knew it was going to be beautiful, nonetheless. But I didn’t expect ME to be so emotional. I was in tears whenever I saw the bride and groom. And on the way home, Kitreena said something that made me come to my senses. The feeling was so intense and beautiful in the same time, I vowed to live long to see Monchies’ turn.

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The other highlight was the ‘gift boxes’ everyone received. Each contains candies and a piece of paper with a printed quote. All thoughtfully numbered (always trust Delynne to come up with something as mindful as that). I loved the idea so much, I told Kitreena and Edrick to start collecting their favorite quotes from now!

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To Delynne and Syazwan…
Have a wonderful journey together full of adventure, laughter, lessons and above all, love. There will be times when you stumble or even fall, and feel as though you were going nowhere. And there will be times when you feel that you are alone in your togetherness. Reach out and hold each other’s hand then, embrace the growing pain and know it is all worth it. You two have come this far.

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And as I was writing the previous paragraph, I realized why I have always loved small weddings. Mine, in Auckland on June 19th seventeen years ago… was one.

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Siri Bercakap Dengan Encik I

Posted in Airwings, Facebook, Humor, Sense on March 29, 2017| Leave a Comment »

Encik: Baju tu guna kain apa?Pelikat
Enida: Baju tu guna kain pelikat buruk bapak saya.
Encik: Hah?
Enida: Kalau tak selesa kami guna kain lap pinggan.
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[Jawapan dalam hati hanya nampak di status FB.]

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.Photo credit: kealambarzakh.wordpress.com

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The Theory of Forever

Posted in Monchies, Sense, tagged on May 25, 2016| Leave a Comment »

It didn’t ideally start with an excitement of driving Monchies to school this morning, to be honest. I had missed the kids despite knowing they had fun walking from Sofia’s house who lives just across the road from school the day before, when I was in Singapore. I wish I could keep them at home to make up for yesterday. But there was something about our supposedly-routine drive to school today that awakened me and had not put me back to bed.

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I was quietly cursing the driver in front of us for signalling but didn’t inch in to our lane by the ‘which-planet-did-you-get-your-license-from-Pluto-or-something’ curse, when Kitreena was scolding her brother for finishing his previous day’s lunch money on a snack. I thought she wasn’t paying attention to my Italian-driving skills on Jalan Tun Nazak.

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Kitreena: Ma, Pluto is not a planet anymore. It’s a dwarf planet.
Mommy: Yeah, I know. See? Nothing lasts forever. Not even a fact!
Kitreena: What do you mean? They just discovered it.
Mommy: Pluto was a planet for… like, forever. It was a known fact. I was born to that fact. And I thought I was going to die knowing that for a fact Pluto was going to be a planet forever. But even that fact could be changed on us, you see. Just like a person you trust to be honest forever. To you, that is a fact. Until… the next thing you know, they change.
Kitreena: Ya. True lah, Ma. If facts can change, what more people.
Mommy: Yup, and that’s the thing about forever. It has its ‘until’.
Edrick: Hmmm… that’s new.

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Monchies and I agreed today that there is no such thing as forever. And that is a fact. For now.

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I Thought I Saw

Posted in Hope, Humor, Monchies, Sense, tagged on January 17, 2016| 1 Comment »

We seldom go shopping for clothes, Monchies and I. Whatever we have that we can wear, we wear them ’til they wear out. And even when they are all worn out, some clothes that we really love are worn out ’til they are torn up. I’m still having a tough time trying to justify why I am in the clothing business, considering how much I do not like shopping for new clothes.

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But the kids are tired of wearing Airwings Merchandise tops, I can tell. So, after Christmas I took them shopping. Kitreena was in dire needs for some ‘girls’ stuff. It was the best time to shop for clothes when everybody else had already spent their mulah prior to Christmas. Malls were quiet and everything was on sale sale sale!

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We had a great time shopping, Monchies and I. So great and so rare, that we were still talking about it a week after. When I picked them up at school one sunny afternoon, Kitreena wished we could go do it again.

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Mommy: But you got everything you wanted, didn’t you?
Kitreena: Not everything.
Mommy: What else did you want?
Kitreena: I wanted Daddy.
Mommy: Huh? Uh… sorry sayang, I can’t help you.
Kitreena: Hehehe…
Mommy: Not for sale. Not on sale.
Edrick: But wait, Mom! I thought I saw him on the shelves.
Mommy: Saw what?
Edrick: Daddy! At RM58.99.
Kitreena: *silent*
Mommy: *silent*
Edrick: *all smiles*

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When I finally got the joke, I broke out in a ROAR of laughter that made Edrick laugh…

Edrick: I haven’t made you laugh this big for a long time, Mom!
Mommy: I know! I just didn’t see it coming!
Kitreena: *tries not to laugh*
Mommy: But why RM58.99 and not RM60.00.
Edrick: That’s after discount.
Mommy: *roars some more*

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Kitreena went quiet in the back seat, and I let her take it easy and take what Edrick said as a joke to lighten up our day. But I did tell her that sunny afternoon, no matter how much we had, some things were just unattainable by money. Some things that were supposedly easy and ready… were the very same things that were not meant to be.

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Siri Bercakap Dengan Edrick LII

Posted in Monchies, Sense, tagged on December 13, 2015| Leave a Comment »

Some time in October…

It was just him, these two days. His sister is recovering from the battle with the haze. Today, to distract us from thinking too much and being bothered by the pollution, I asked him about the most interesting lesson he learned at school.

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Edrick: Mom, I think microbes are amazing.

Mommy: Oh yes they are.

Edrick: And it is amazing how many diseases they can cause.

Mommy: That is because they are super duper tiny, they can get into anything.

Edrick: Yeah, I know. Mom, have you ever had wumps?

Mommy: You mean, mumps or lumps?

Edrick: Hahaha sorry, not wumps. I mean mumps.

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I had a big laugh that I forgot to tell him the story of my humps.
Uh! I mean mumps!

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Mumps

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