A few have asked why I am sounding like I am not over it. I have a big smile everytime I am asked, though. Do I really sound like I am not over it? Like I am still angry about it, like I am reheating it, gearing up for a big burn, burst or bomb or something? Well, if that is how I am sounding to you, you obviously don’t know me well. You have not seen how I dealt with anger.
Those who know me well, know… that silence is always The Resort I check my anger in. Which has been, with this anger for what happened about a year ago now. When I was driving from Nikko Hotel to Ampang to ask Mrs. X to face me, I was determined that it was her who needed to see me. She needed to see that this face, this person, this Enida comes with a heart. Enida’s heart can break just like hers can. The only difference was, she was not worth the heartbreak. She could bark and bite, and oh she’s got teeth alright, but she could not break my heart!
And I was going to give her the message of closure that 10 years earlier, the man was head over heels with me too… and I did not take him away from anyone. He was a free man. We did not build our marriage on the foundation of lies, mess and heartbreaks. The 10 years we had were the happy years until his job took him away from his family, and until childbearing and childrearing took me away from me. But when I got there, and when I was at her gate, my anger subsided. I was overwhelmed with the energy from my decision of courage.
I am not angry now, no. I am simply telling you a story from my side of the gate. And telling this story takes courage, not anger. You must be mistaken me for somebody else.
This was the face she had to face that day.
This picture was taken on the very day I went to her gate.
Now, does this look like a face of anger?
🙂
Questa è Enida 
Tho i dont know you well, but only a person who is wise & full of courage can do what you did…and nah! The only person who deserves tabik 4 seasons is you!
Awwww Nina! You’re very kind with words! Thank you. Next time when I’m feeling down, I should remember to ‘check my feeling in’ The Four Seasons Resort. Your comments have just left me beaming and glowing all over. Spasiba bolshoi!
Er, kalau itu lah Enida’s Anger-Face(refer gambar diatas), mau nyer nak buat Ngah marah hari-hari XD
Ni dah macam serupa dengan kes salah-faham term ‘demonstrasi aman’.Sebut jer ‘demonstrasi aman’ timbullah segala pak pulis dari Perlis sampai lah ke Sabah.
Once upon a time, my anger = kick the fella.Now?Tak larat nak layan nafsu marah yang ala Toddler Tantrum.But, I need to vent somewhere lah kan he he.
I wish you love and happiness, Madame Pokrovsky 🙂
Oh my dearest Lisa!
You never fail to make me smile earring to earring (oh yes, pakai danglings pagi ni)! Sukanya lah I membaca your comments which I missed recently when you went missing in action and aksi penuh debaran seperti biasa. Oh yes, I noticed!
Itu lah, I ni tak boleh menulis soal hati langsung. Ada je yang tanya, “Aaiii marah ke?” Elok-elok I muka Angelface terus jadi Angerface (borrow your terms jap). I believe, off all the emotions… anger is probably the most powerful to move us physically. But the energy derived from anger usually generates negative actions. I don’t face anger. Whenever I can, I turn the other way. I fear not anger, it is regret that I have issues with. I tak nak regret actions that I take in anger. Dijauhkanlah hendaknya.
Sebab tu lah I did not write all this cerita in September 2008. Because nanti semua orang nampak my anger. And it is… the ugliest face ever (of course next to the face of arrogance). Sekarang tulis boleh gelak-ketawa some more. Sebab now I dah kenal this Mrs. X yang rupa-rupanya nothing but a laughingstock lah. Dia punya belagak hebat tu, pehhh! Madame Pokrovsy memang kena tabik spring, summer, fall and winter! Dan Madam Pokrovsky kena mohon ampun dan mahap di Aidilfitri mulia ini bagi pihak Mrs. X dan kesombong-bongkakan beliau itu.