Questa è Enida

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I was sending some samples of my poems to a hopefully future editor/publisher when I found this:

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Ganti

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Sengaja aku susun
rindu ini untukmu
dari bulan ke minggu.

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Sengaja aku atur
untukmu rindu ini
dari bulan ke hari.

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Tak sedar
tahun sudah berganti.

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June 18, 2000.
Skycity, Auckland.

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It has been almost ten years. In fact, the poem is only ten days short of celebrating its tenth birthday today. I remember writing this the day before my wedding, alone in my room, thinking of all the could-have-been’s and the would-have-been’s, anticipating all the possibilities and the impossibilities. Though it is for no one in particular, I remember thinking of what I was about to let go.

I had no regrets then.

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I am letting go of all the possibilities and the impossibilities.

I have no regrets now.

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