Entah apa yang saya tunggu dari lewat malam ke awal pagi. Entah apa yang saya nanti. Malam sudah lama berlalu. Pagi yang sekejap lagi akan terang tak dapat juga melelapkan mata mengantuk saya ini. Saya berjaga seolah-olah menjaga waktu. Takut tertidur dan terlepas waktu untuk entah apa. Mahu berangkat ke mana kah saya ini?
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I don’t know what I have been waiting for from last night to this early hour. I am not sure what awaits me. The night is done. The first light of day will break and still has it not pushed me to fall. Asleep. I am staying up as though I was keeping time. Afraid that sleep would leave me behind and I would miss the journey. Am I even going somewhere?
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I finished watching Hope Floats for the 39th time hours ago. After going on to Oprah Podcast, distracting me from my own thoughts and hopes, I went back to listening to From Russia With Love and When I Look At You. The next thing I knew, the clock struck three. And I am back to this, telling you things I cannot say.
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I am trying to reach out to you if you can feel it within my painful silence. I am trying to tell you everything by not saying anything anymore. It has been so long and I have said too much. I’m out of words. And I’m all out of love. Whatever love is.
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Questa è Enida 
Cepatlah sikit balik ke sini. Akan ku hitung hari. XOXO
enida, i am hurt by the pain inflicted on you. i know you are blessed with many friends and family but if ever you need a stranger to hear you out – you know my contact deets.