In all my strength, there is one thing I am not built for. I have no ability to hate. I wish I could. And if I could, I wish I could hate and be hurtful. And if I could hate, I wish I could use the ugliest language ever spoken on earth – complete with the spitting and the snorting, if there is such a language. Mind you, I am very linguistic!
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But I am just not built nor made to hate. Not that way. And all the worldly languages would fail me when I am hurt or when I am even thinking of having an intention to hate. I have the tendency to think before I hate. There is no such thing as after I hate, either. Because I have never been able to go all the way to the starting point of hating. Hating finishes before it begins.
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Life is short. Hating does not just shorten it. It kills the heart. But as heartless as I would like to think I am… I am very much alive.
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Questa è Enida 
Tetiba teringat lagu Rihanna Feat Eminem
Just gonna stand there watch me burn,
It’s all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there hear me cry,
It’s all right because I love the way you lie…
Like, like, like! In fact, I went and BOUGHT the Eminem CD dengan penuh rasa kemudaremajaan dan memasang CD itu dengan kuat berdentumnya dalam kereta berdriving seorang diri. Liberating!