Questa è Enida

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow–
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out–
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit–
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

– Author unknown

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I ain’t no quitter. Nah, not me. I am just tired of unkindness. You know, things people do when they fall out of love. Like they raise their voice to all questions that sound like criticism to their unloving ears. Like they look at your face the way they look at beggars. Like they won’t let you touch them for the fear of you giving them diseases. Like they want to have nothing to do with you. And like they have never loved you anyway. Like twelve years of marriage had brought nothing good at all.

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They forget. And I am tired of reminding myself that it is not worth it. Yes I do feel like I am hit the hardest at the moment. Tapi saya ini Intan, dia kaca.

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I am just gone polishing.

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