Yes, I have.
I have, in all my waking hours, been reminding myself that love, in any form, is the best defense against loneliness. Yes, I have. But the trouble is, I don’t trust Enida. I don’t trust if she could ever pick herself up again if she is let down. Again. There shouldn’t be any again, again. I am shutting everyone out, out of fear of being hurt.
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I am, in all my humbleness… scared.
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Questa è Enida 
i share your pain. BUt you had it worse. I ‘m one who believes in time heals most pain & healing from the soul first.
Dont be affaird of being alone; it could be a blessing . Hugs my dear. We must catch up soon
Nid,
Though it hurts, it can cure too.. But do tread carefully! Been there…