Marilyn: Enida, you are really glowing these days! Are you sure you don’t have good news for us?
Enida: Huhhh?
Lirang: Yes, you are. We are wondering!
Marilyn: Is there anybody new coming in less than 9 months? An addition or something?
Enida: Huhhh?
I say ‘Huh?’ a lot these days, don’t I? That was all I could say at first to Marilyn and Lirang the other day when I picked the ladies up at McDonald’s Tushinskaya on the way to Crocus City Mall. They got me blushing pink, as pink as my pink denim JURANG shirt. I don’t blush very often. I don’t wear pink very often either. So I came up with a blushing pink statement like…
“Oh it must be my pink shirt.”
Marilyn went on with the good news she received just the night before, that she’s going to be Mama Mary again to another grandchild, as she kept on teasing me with the glowing in the dark comment. With a serious smile on my face trying very hard to convince the ladies, I said…
“I’m done baking, people! Kitchen is closed.”
I am making some muffins tomorrow, though.
Seriously literally.
Questa è Enida 
You’re still young lah. Lagi boleh, buat saja. Dont close the kitchen yet!
Hi Aishah,
Thank you for your comment. 🙂
Actually, age is not my issue. I am convinced that I will enjoy the buat saja activities tu until I am 88 if I live that long. Hehehe. I am, however, more of a quality person than quantity. I come from a big family. Although I do enjoy having a big family now – I have 2 sisters and 5 brothers – I can’t say my childhood was a time filled with doing what all children should be doing. My parents were so busy with my younger siblings, I felt very lonely. I felt that all I was needed for was to help out with chores. There was no one there to enjoy my childhood. Not even me.
So I learned from my loneliness, my lonely childhood, of what not to have if I cannot want them. I am enjoying both Monchies now sepenuh hati. While I do not deny I am capable of loving more kids, I must admit that I like my ‘Me Time’ as well. I recharge by doing what I like most, writing and (professionally) training. When I am recharged after writing, or when I come home from work, I am a happy person. When I am a happy person, I am a happy Mom. I am hoping my kids will remember me as a happy Mom who is always there for them (and not a mom who is always busy with younger kids, babies and more babies).
I have utter respect for women who have the capacity and desire to have more than two kids. If they enjoy it, I have nothing but applaud and praises. Good for them! I, nevertheless, am very contented with what I have right now. Hehe. I believe that this humble contentment comes from my ability to want what I already have, rather than to have what others do.
That said, though, if God grants me more… hey, all the more power for me! Hehehe. 🙂