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Puas Sudah

Dalam banyak-banyak lagu sempena bulan puasa ni, ada satu yang sedang berputar ligat tak berhenti-henti di benak saya sejak petang. It’s not even Raya yet. But you know how time is marked by songs. And you know how some songs can follow you like a langau for a few hours, days and – in some serious cases – months at a time, don’t you? Some songs even stay to be your lifetime theme song. Cue: Ally McBeal.

 

Well, the Ramadhan song I’m talking about is:

 

Bulan Ramdan yang mulia
umat Islam berpuasa
menunai rukun ketiga
beramal dan ibadat
kita di bumi Allah
ingat hari akhirat

Bersatu dan berusha
mencapai cita mulia
seia dan sekata
maju hidup bersama
untuk diri keluarga
ugama bangsa dan negara

Jangan leka
laburlah segera
Amanah Saham Nasional sedia
menjaga pelaburan setiap ketika
laburlah segera
segera labur segera

 

Does this song ring anybody else’s bell, I wonder. Oh! It has been ringing mine like a broken alarm clock every time I come online and see the word Ramadhan these past weeks. The same song keeps playing in my mind actually, about this time of the year every year. Especially now that I am away again. It’s louder and clearer. Clear melear!

 

Funny though, how the new Ramadhan songs just don’t sit with me. They don’t even stick to me. I keep going back to this probably 1979’s Ramadhan song. Or was it 1980 when Amanah Saham Nasional was first introduced? Ever wondered why Permodalan Nasional Berhad  used Ramadhan to encourage investing in ASN? Relativity theory anyone?

 

I so lah derailed nya. I know.

 

Sepohon kayu daunnya rimbun...Anyway, I can almost see the choir that originally sang this song in front of an astaka for the Musabaqah that year. How their hands put together before their chest, left thumb resting on the four other fingers of the right hand. And how kembang kempis their noses went, singing the song ever so enthusiastically! Almost patriotically – if not religiously.

 

And I can almost smell what was cooking in Mom’s kitchen of our one-bedroom rumah sewa (RM45 per month in the 70’s) beralamat 745-U Lorong 2 Kg. Jana Baru. Seriously, that tiny house only had one bedroom and the bedroom did not even have the daun pintu! The only pintu you could find inside the house was the bathroom door. Made out of a piece of zinc and cheap plywood Z-frame. Well, we were just grateful we didn’t have to do our business terang bulan!

 

Life was simple then. We never over-ate in Ramadhan like a lot of people do now. There was no excuse to have one Bazaar Ramadhan in every half a km ridiculous radius! Pasar minggu was always enough for a week stock-up. All kuehs were homemade whenever we had extra tepung. When there wasn’t, biskut lutut, biskut jari, biskut bulat masin, biskut mayat, or any biskut kering was always in store. Though we always had to ration, always had to share, not once did we go hungry. Not ever! Of course I did, bila mogok lapar tak dapat 15¢ beli sepeket bunga api cap kepala kucing hitam! We were poor and yet we had everything. Yes, every thing.

 

Uh… what was I talking about asalnya tadi? Aaahh lagu bulan puasa! I was going to move on to write about lifetime theme songs, sebenarnya. But really think I should make my way to the fridge scrounging for some leftover jarred sardines I tumis-ed the other day with ginger, garlic and lotsa bawang besar.

 

Only poor men can?They do have canned sardines here of course. (They have canned everything! If they could can snow, I bet they would.) But feeling a bit curious the other day when shopping at Alye Parusa, I got me some jarred Norwegian sardines. They are not as good as the Cap Ayam ones, but no less than Cap Ligo. Definitely not the kind of food Abramovich would eat. His sardines might as well come in gold cans. But hey… what money can buy.

 

All said, I often think the word PUASA should be spelled without the ‘a’ at the end.

 

Mumty Dumbty

Kitreena and I had a little discussion on children literature after lunch today. Well, a nursery rhyme, to say the obvious – if it is not too obvious from my title. Apparently it was playing in and getting through her head as she was trying to make sense of that one little famous egg story of Humpty Dumpty. 

 

She was peeling her dessert, a mandarin orange, ever so slowly when she, seemed like out of nowhere, started to ask :

 

Kitreena: Mom, do you know why Humpty Dumpty broke?

 

Yeah, really. Why did Humpty Dumpty break? And why have I never asked myself that question?

Mom: No, I don’t. Why, monch?

 

Kitreena: Because he was an egg. Eggs can’t sit. They would break.

 

Smartie pants in an overall.Silently thinking, “Oh you smartie pants you!”

Mom: Oh ok! I see. If so, what was an egg doing on the wall then?

 

Kitreena: Because he wanted to enjoy a good view.

 

I should go find me a wall this weekend, then.

Mom: Why do you think he was called Humpty Dumpty? He was just an egg.

 

Kitreena: Because that’s his name. Somebody’s got to give him a name to make him a story.

 

Aaahh good logic! My questions are starting to sound silly by now. Well, takpe-takpe.

Mom: Why couldn’t all the King’s horses and all the King’s men put him together again, you think?

 

Kitreena: Because there were just too many broken pieces of eggshell, Mom. It was a very high wall. And the King’s men were busy, they didn’t have time to fix a broken egg. And horses don’t fix broken eggs, Mom.

 

Silly me! That is why you don’t discuss children literature with children using adult logic.

Awakening

Aku yang tertidur dan tengah bermimpi. Langit-langit kamar jadi penuh gambar. Wajahmu yang manis, sejuk, segar...

“Forgetting without forgiving is like waking up without sleeping.”

~ Enida
Pokrovsky Boulevard, Moscow
August 21, 2009

Rantau Abang

Abang sayang, abang di mana? Hati risau mengenang dikau...

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Kenangan Di Rantau Abang was one of my favorite songs when I was just eight, nine or so. I got so emotional in a child-ish way just imagining the hamparan permaidani indah, lirik-melirik permata nilam ku gelisah. I remember asking my Mom what it meant because I had a suspicion that the gentleman Rafeah Buang was missing in this song was about to marry somebody else in Rantau Abang! Mom hushed me up saying that it was none of an eight-or-nine-year-old business.

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And when Sheila Majid sang this song in her Sheila-Majid-ly way, I was about 15 or somewhere there. It was love at the second sound the second time around. Still I had the suspicion about the permaidani and permata nilam. But by then, after many many visits to Dungun, Paka, Kuala Trengganu (for Bintang RTM recording) and to Rantau Abang… I knew how easy it was for one  to get oneself a mustika kalbu – or two – whenever one visited Trengganu. Men from the east coast were charmers.

 Rantau Abang Charmer

Are they still?

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Kenangan Di Rantau Abang

Rafeah Buang

Tenang malam ini
Angin malam lalu
Membawa pesan dari
Mustika kalbu

Nyiur nan melambai
Bulan nan mengambang
Hati kini terdampar
Di Rantau Abang

Di sana ku melihat
Hamparan permaidani indah
Lirik melirik permata nilam
Ku gelisah

Ku tanya pada malam
Bintang bertabur mengapa suram
Hatiku resah dan merindu
Di Rantau Abang

Balloony Baloney

Be, me Monchies and me spent countless hours and countful Rubels  riding on Metro, Yellow Такси and Lada to get around in this 15-million-people city up until August 12 when we finally got what we CRaVed for. Very little of those countless hours and countful Rubels were for sightseeing, if any. We hopped in, hopped out, jumped on and jumped off those public transport mainly running errands. 

 

Not having our own vehicle was probably my main excuse reason to why the household had gone broomless for the longest time in Enida’s history! I didn’t have the heart to stuff a broom or a mop between myself and the Monchies in the back seat of a cute lil old Lada. Nor did I have the heart to ride a Metro with a broom between my legs. I would be at risk of disclosing my secret bourne identity – so far only Sofia the backdoor-neighbor’s daughter knows. Oh yeah, I do have a cauldron in my pantry. (Witch is for me to blog another day about.)

 

Granted all the papers required to be legal in this bitter-chocolate-bitter-cold country, we then spent countless hours and countful Rubels trying to purchase a vehicle. Looking back at it now, I did not mind the countable Kopecks. But I counted the uncountable hours – waiting for everything. And guess what took the longest? Paying. Yes, paying! For a country that loves money, it sure took us a long time to buy than to shop. I assume your definition of buying and shopping is similar to mine:

 

buying
-paying and taking the purchased item home

shopping
-looking, contemplating, choosing, trying, making my mind up, changing my mind, looking some more, contemplating some more, choosing some more, trying some more, making excuses to not make my mind up, changing my excuses, repeating the whole process until the right time comes for ME to do the buying

 

Anyway, it’s all done now and whatever lessons waiting to be learned have been learned. Including a lesson I learned about balloons, right on the doorstep of the car dealer’s showroom. Yes, balloons. I am not kidding you, nor am I concocting any baloney on you.

 

Those countless hours at the showroom were the farthest cry from what you would label action-packed. But hoy! Were they ever lesson-packed! I learned that no matter how komenes these Russians would want us to see them as, and no matter how they want you to think they can skin your head… they love children. They would offer anything they have and anything they can to kids that come in close propinquity with them. Candies, chocolates, lollies, cookies, sooshka, little toys, balloons… you name it. You’ll end up with a list longer than the TranSiberian rail tracks.

 

So when Miss Svetlana Mikhailovna Dostoevsky took all the trouble of filling two balloons with helium and handed them to Kitreena and Edrick… I was touched. Not overly surprised. Touched, more than anything. And I caught her smiling watching me Monchies playing with the balloons happily in between Jazz, Mugen, Accord and Pilot show models. She even made a loop on the ribbon tying the balloon to each Monchie’s wrist. Very thoughtful indeed.

 

When the dealing was done and it was time to go home wait for a taxi outside, the kids learned that the loop was absolutely more than necessary. But of course, the one lesson I know so well about kids… they always persist on pushing the boundaries. They don’t believe what safe is until they know what risky means. And my boy insisted on taking the risk by taking his wrist out of the loop. I must have warned him about the risk of losing the balloon 15 times within the first 2 minutes of saying ‘no’. It was, for Lenin’s sake, a windy afternoon!

 

I don’t think it takes a Russian intelligence to guess what the next lesson was and learned by whom, kharasyo? Sure enough, the red balloon fled Edrick’s hand in approximately 2 minutes and 15 seconds after he took it off from his wrist! I tried to grab it but to no success. Edrick cried the saddest cry I had ever seen that windy afternoon! He knew he lost it – the balloon, the fun, the chance. It was then that I came to my senses as to why I never liked balloons! They pop, they fly away. They never stay! I learned that I have probably lost many chances in my life just because I had been so afraid of losing!

 

The balloon, I had to tell Edrick, had gone to the balloons’ heaven, where all balloons eventually go. And that was after my unsuccessful attempt of telling him that the balloon had flown to the moon. Edrick, the little einstein rascal demanded I got him a rocket!

 

Just when I thought there was enough learned for one day, another lesson came knocking on my Sense & Sensibility Door, introducing herself as Miss Second Chance. She came just a few hours earlier as Lady Kindness, wearing Miss Svetlana Mikhailovna Dostoevsky’s face. It was a no-wonder that she looked delightfully familiar. Here she was, with another balloon, same color, same loop, same smile.

 

And so Edrick got his second chance, his second balloon, from the same lady! She must have been watching me Monchies from inside (or above, or somewhere!) I was just about ready to jump on her to give her the biggest Russian hug an Asian can ever give, but I knew it was a bit too much. I thanked her with a million spasibas profusedly, nonetheless, as I was boarding the taxi.

 

Two kilometers down the road, Edrick’s second balloon popped!

 

They pop. They fly away. They never stay.

 

Hope Floats

Balloon Lesson One Balloon Lesson Two

Balloon Lesson Three Balloon Lesson Four

 

There is a lesson waiting to be learned. This one has learned his.

Shortfall

Me DucklingsSummer refuses to linger. Very quickly 24°C weather has turned the page and me ducklings… instead of splashing at the Pokrovsky pond, will have to make do splashing in the bath tub these last couple days or so. It stayed 11°C for a few good morning hours yesterday as Autumn rain has fallen. And I? I stayed indoors minding my wordpress and mending my Spring chook.

 

No, I lied. It was nowhere near a ‘spring’ chook. It was a Doux frozen chicken, the kind we used to get in Oman, after we discovered how fatty the Sadia chooks were. Anyway, as I was fondling her breasts and caressing her thighs gently scanning for missed hairs (stubs from feather follicles), a film of her skin fell off. Did I say I did it gently? And as I was holding her by her back, I crushed the sides of her spine and her ribs too! It was then that I realized that the chook could have been older than me!

 

And I, I am no spring bird either. I am a four-season sexy swan mother goose who just got herself a pair of Viking winter boots – yeah in the middle of summer! Looks like I am going to have to learn to fly this year, if I can’t ski or skate. Hmmm… that made me an old dog who has to learn new tricks because I live in a Siberian husky country. Woof wolf!

Vagabond

If we can't be beggars, we'll be choosers.

Three homeless people in St. Petersburg
who were neither beggars nor choosers.

Lucky Lucky Me

She kissed the corners of my mouth, rocked me in her arms stroking my shoulders and held me so close to her chest, that it was hard to believe she wasn’t the one bringing me to this world. And it wasn’t until when she said, “It is good to have you, dear” that I let that little child in me cry the longing cry for a mother.

 

At half past three in the morning she left me at the door and for the first time in my life I realized how my mother never left me. It was I who left her time and time again. And she has never asked me to come home, as though she knew I would always carry her in my heart. She knows I do.

 

Mom getting her mom-entum...This other mother of mine had once asked me to come home to her when her son lost his way home to me. And this other mother of mine looked me in the teary eyes at half past three in the morning and wished me luck as she knew all I need now is just that. Luck. She knows what I am out of.

 

  

Rodong

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